I’ve had some time since my last journal  entry to really think and absorb & hear & feel everything  around me. It’s been a very emotional few days round here. I am so inspired by all the things that go on and all the things  that are said whether or not they are negative or positive. I want to be the best that I can be and I set a very high standard for myself  and am very critical of myself, especially if I know I can do it better. I know Supernova saw something in me that made them believe in me and I am learning so much from this  experience. I don’t  know it all and I am really listening to Supernova's comments  because I look up to them, I admire them and respect them as people and  musicians for all that they’ve accomplished. They are wiser and I know that though sometimes harsh, it’s the truth and I respect that. I know they are trying to make us the best artists, singers, performers we can each become. 

 

I am  passionate about  everything I do especially performing, singing & writing  and I am dedicated and committed to this life and who I am and to this  band. I’ve learned that theres always room for improvement for growth and stubbornness gets you nowhere. I have an open  mind and am open to all of the changes I may go through to really find who I am. I’ve learned to stay true to who I am and hope that this seed of passion I have inside of me will grow and flourish and bring out the best of who I am. I have been very guarded here. I usually wear my heart on my sleeve and am eager to make friends and share and trust. 

 

I am here for a reason and that is to front Supernova. There is never a bored or stagnant moment here for me, and I use my time  to create and I’m just being me here. It’s hard for me to hear people say “I’m bored” my thought for that is  “write  a song.” We had a performance clinic with Jason and I was really looking forward  to this. I learn so much from watching my performance back, though it’s kind of  weird & hard to watch yourself. I guess I get so critical of myself but anyway, anything I can do, or Jason, Gilby or Tommy can say to help me improve is  golden and special. I want to learn  from mistakes so I can get up there the next  time & be better, sing better, be aware of where & what my bandmates are doing so together our performances will be comfortable & trusting  and amazing. We watched each others performances and also some tape of Aerosmith & others. I will apply all of the performances  I watched into becoming the best performer I can be, still remaining  true to myself & who I am. It’s all  so exciting. Song selection is soon. Bring it on!